its a long story, im 48 single, i have a few issues in the last few years, i was very outgoing , but i have become isolated from my community and lonely, i seem to meet the wrong type of people, i guess you could say i thought i knew it all , butif all the knowledge , relgion, self-help , etc.. and you think life is going to give you your dreams and then it dosent work out, ..you give up on people..i was vry hard on myself, and love can turn into bitterness and envy , when it didnt start out that way...im thankful just to be alive, i have a brother who is good to me and a retriever named fred, ..i would love to meet peole who know the story, and find genuine decent long-lasting true frienships, look forward to chatting to you